At the moment I'm bored out of my mind.... Beyond my mind... Just .. bored... I haven't found anything particularly amazing for quite a while: spiritually, physically, intellectually.... damn.. sexually... I don't know....
I've been getting the feeling allot lately that I need to go deeper in my practice as far as learning more and giving more readings, etc.... Yesterday, I gave readings to two fellow dancers and they found it deeply insightful. And the readings were cool, despite my apprehensions due to week of not even batting an eye at my Numerology books... But afterward, I really had to ask myself "What next?".... After that moment, what comes next for me as the reader? What lingers for me? What remains? In allot of ways I feel as if the inner sense of gratification I get from my practice is less than the actual amount of work I put into developing it..
I've been contemplating the theory of developing my "Indigenous Mind" recently because of some work that I've been reading... And it's a beautiful thought and concept, but it's soooo far flung from the life that I've always lived, and despite my own attempts at being a bit less mainstream, I still find that allot of every part of me is still fixed within a mainstream modus operendi... That feeling of excitement and adventure that I felt as a kid mhas been replaced with so many responsibilities...
Oh well.... Just another day... and i guess this is yet another lesson in truly finding the dwelling places of the Goddess.... Deep within and all around....
Let's see what another week brings....
Blessed Be )O(
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